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November 16th, 2005
12:09 am

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Long Time?
It's been a few months since i last wrote in this thing. A lot of interesting things have happened...some that i would like to explain but dont have the time, and others that i just can't explain at all...words could not justify. The Kentuckiana rave scene has totally picked up from how it used to be. Sad thing is...Raves= DRAMA and im done with it. I have enough drama to deal with at school I dont need the cracked-out druggie drama to go along with it. I really love the rave scene and a lot of the people that are involved in it, but then there are the ones that cant stop runnin their mouths. So i will hang with all the ones i DO like(but not at raves) and i will happily leave the others in the shadows of all the good times i have experienced. They will be remembered, but not in a way everyone else will be remembered. I love my raver buddies to death. i would do anything for them. and i know that the TRUE ones would do the same for me. But for now...this is Good-Bye to the rave scene. i may return at a later date to continue where i left off. but only time will tell
xoPLURxo
~Sam

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Current Music: Overdose By: Tom Craft

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July 10th, 2005
12:59 am

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What Next?
So far summer has been good...I've gone to Kings Island and the Newport Aquarium which is so over-rated. It was nice but everyone makes it out to be something Huge...it's not. The trip was fun none the less. The last couple of days seem as a blur in my memory. Everythign was done so quickly. Speaking of quickly I am on the brink of turning 16 on the 19th of July. It seems like just yesterday I was at the IWA old Venue on My birthday having Prazak announce it to everyone that I have just turned 14. Everything seems to happen so fast. It also feels that like just yesterday I was meeting one of the most important people im my life which happend a litte over a year ago. And I cannot wait for him to return so I can tell him how much of a difference he has made and how he has encouraged and motivated me to be the best I can be in every aspect. I have also recently started to talk to someone who I haven't talked to in a little over a year, And this person used to be a little on the aggressive side towards me. And not knowing who I was he has been talking to me like I was the last female on earth. It is amazing what a year can do to someone's Body and personality. That has happened a lot in the past few weeks. I have been re-united with people I havent talked to in such a long time and they find out how much I have changed...for the good...I have also started to realize who I really am and what I want out of life. It is amazing what staying up late and just thinking about stuff can do to your mind. I have grown so much in the last month or so it's unbelieveable. I never thought I'd be the way I am today. I have some of the best friends anyone could ask for who are there for me whenever I need tham and they have been for a few years now. I love them so much and I am so thankful for having such great friends.

On to other things

I have recently Dyed my hair a red-ish purple with purle-ish black under that. I am considering changing it again to a bolder color. PURPLE. It will only be temporary. Maybe last a few weeks. Then after that I'm thinking of going back to my natural color for a month or so. I love changing my hair for the simple fact that it's one of the only ways I can express myself and be different. Because I cannot express myself with the clothes I wear because everyone around here shops at the same stores or at stores that are very similar. And a lot of people at my school have their hair the same as someone else, and I'm tired of looking like other people. I have dyed my hair orange before and I loved the attention I received from it. Everyone was amazed that someone like me would make such a dramatic change. But I love shocking people. And the more people there are that call me a "freak" the happeir I am for the simple fact that they are exactly like everyone else because they dont that the courage to look differnt and try new things. But I think I'm done ranting and raving about my changes and so forth, 'Til later days my fellow "freaks"

"wave your freak flag high" - Jimi Hendrix
PLUR
*~!SAM!~*

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Current Music: Jimi Hendrix

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May 29th, 2005
10:56 pm

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WoOt-WoOt
FiNaLy!!!
School is OuT! I've been waiting for this for 180 days. FoReAl. But I start summer school Tuesday for damn english. So far my "summer break" has been kick ass. I've had a lot of people over in the last like 3 days, So far it's been total non-stop action...foreal. Thursday, I'm pretty sure Brandi stayed with me, then Friday, me and amber stayed at Brandi's...then lastnight Amber, Brandi, Phillip, Aaron and someone who shall remain nameless...who i will call "Joe" stayed here...it was fuckin' awesome fer sure. I aimed to get drunk lastnight but it didnt happen, becasue I started drinkin' then i got really hyper and started runnin around then it made my stomach hurt...so I quit drinkin'. It pissed me off. But in the mean time I had a hella good time lastnight, I felt bad because me, Brandi, and "Joe" were all in my basement...then me and "joe" started makin out....and left brandi there to watch...I felt bad becasue I know how it is to be the one that is stuck with nothin to do in the awkward ass silence...But she's not mad at me as far as I know. But I have to admit I did have lots of fun...lol..and would do it agin if i ever had the chance...::sorry, Brandi::...But I would...lol...but i gotta go...I'm gonna watch Titanic....Later Bitches

Current Mood: deviousdevious
Current Music: Drop it like its hot

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May 26th, 2005
04:40 pm

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Crimson River...or somthin...
HAHA...lol...Today was the last day of my sophomore year...So i'm now a "junior" How exciting right?...not really...I start summer school on Tuesday...for stupid English...I hate English..for real...I plan on doin a lot of partyin' this summer...Especially for my 16th birthday...We're gettin a hotel room up in Scottsburg...and we're gonna get CrUnK for sure. My cousin is gettin the alcohol...and I know other people that are gettin the drugs...YEah...It's gonna be PiMp...I'm gonna be so fucked up...lol...But yea...I'm supposed to be stayin at my friend Zac's house saturday night...but I dont know if I'm goin to or not...I hope i do cuz he's hot and has drugs...lol...I'm totaly the person i didn't want to grow up to be. I remember when i was little I wanted to live a drug/alcohol free life...and I wanted to wait to have sex after I was married...which none of that is gonna happen...lol...I'm noit ashamed to say I do drugs or I get drunk a lot...Becasue it's who I am...and I know when my bodie's had too much...And I take full responsibility for EVERYTHING i do when I'm messed up...anyways...I dont know why i titled this "Crimson River" It's just the first thing to came to mind...well that sounds weird...lol...but it's the truth...and if you dont like it then quit reading this stupid thing...I mean geez...lol...But yeah...I gotta go call some people about this weekend and call other people to get what i need for this weekend... ::DrUg DeAl::
-'Til the pigs show up-
PLUR Sam

Current Mood: ready to roll
Current Music: Illusions

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May 23rd, 2005
12:54 am

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Saturday Night...FaBuLoUsNeSs
WOW...Saturday night was off the chain..lol...for real though. I was rollin' major balls for sure. I swear. There weren't many people at first. It was just me and 2 of my really good friends(who shall remain nameless for their protection. When it was just us they were just wearin wifebeaters and their underwear...I was wearin a wifebeater and my underwear for awhile then it got too hot so I took the wife beater off...So then I was just in my underwear and bra...It was hilarious...Then some other people called and were like "we're comin' over"...For my protection against getting raped or somthin i put my wifebeater back on...and my "2 very good friends" put their pants back on...the wifebeater was like 4 sizes too big so it was like a dress...but it was awesome...the whole time everyone was there I was the only one runnin around without pants...it was OuTta CoNtRoL for sure. Then me and "1 of my very good friends" were runnin around rubbin people and kissin' people. I've never felt so lesbian in my whole life...but that's straight cuz i'm very comfortable with my sexuality and I'm always up for some fun...no matter who it's with...But that's straight. After a few hours everyone left except my "2 very good friends" But they got tired and went to bed, but I was still rollin' so I was like Fuck that, so I called Tommy and me and him talked for like an hour...It was cool, I dont really remember what all was said...but that's ok i guess...lol...That's what drugs do to ya....for real...so i'm just tellin everyone now...although I really dont have room to talk...DRUGS ARE BAD!!! DON'T DO X!!!....DON'T SMOKE WEED!!! DON'T DO ACID!!! DON'T DO ANY OF IT!!! IT CAN KILL YOU THE FIRST TIME YOU TRY IT!!! DON'T DO IT...EVER...I'm such a hypacrite...or however the hell u spell it...hehe...lol...But I gotta go...Until more drugs have been ingested...
*PLUR*
PEACE
LOVE ~*~SaM~*~
UNITY
RESPECT

Current Mood: draineddrained
Current Music: Cleches By DJ Encore

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May 19th, 2005
08:38 pm

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boredom
Right now it's stromin' like a mutha fucka. I swear it HATE it. I mean I could be outside doin somthin' beside sittin in my house...bein' lazy, for once I feel like doin somthin productive...and I can't. It sucks ass. This weekend is gonna be hella fun. I swear, tomorrow I'm goin to wrestling(IWA-MS). then saturday I"m gonna be rollin' balls like hell. I'm so pumped. I just have to call Mike to make sure he can still take me and Brandi. So I need to call him tomorrow...I so hope he can still take us. If not I'm gonna be devistated...For real...I havent been in FOREVER, it's making me sad. I miss seein' everyone...even though a lot of them hate me, I still miss it...It brings back memories from the 8th grade, except I'm not gonna be with my dad and Erin, I'm gonna be with Brandi, Mike, Ashlie and maybe others, I dont know yet...But I'm expecting it to be fun. I might call some people to see if they wanna roll with us, I'm tryin to get a bunch of ppl together, and have a small rave, ok I'm jokin' no rave, just a small rollin party, It's not gonna be much of a party if I dont get more ppl to go. I'm supposed to call some dudes...to see if they wanna roll with us, But that can be bad, cuz I think they're hot, but it's all good, I have enough self coltrol, to hold myself back. LOL I'm jokin' I'm not gonna be rollin' that hard, I wont need to hold myself back. But yea...I dont know what I'm doin during the day saturday, I know that night I'm havin ppl over, but I need somthin to do that day...damn...Im gonna be bored til like 9. I haven't thought about that til now...that kinda pisses me off Why do I have to do that...forget about stuff...geez...Ok, I think I'm done one here cuz I'm startin to rant on and on about stuff no one cares about....later
*PLUR* ~Sam

Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Current Music: radio...99.7

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May 14th, 2005
04:20 pm

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4:20
Hey, it's been a short while, but yea, the other day I got my letter from Josh, i was uber excited. But lastnight I talked to some guy named donnie, he seemed pretty cool. I haven't talked to Matt in a long while, i think he's gettin back with is g/f...that sucks but it's his loss, but yea, i really don't have anything else to say so i'm out

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April 28th, 2005
05:39 pm

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Dumped...It sucks...
JR broke up with me after a week...Me and him got really close, but it took a turn for the worse...He decided after a week he did still like his ex-g/f. So now they are back together and I haven't talked to him in about a week...after HE asked me if we could still be friends...what kind of shit is that? honestly...He's lucky I'm not a total bitch, or I could've messed up his car...But I'm NOT a total bitch(big surprise) so I didn't I just let it slide. I shouldn't have, but I did. But now I've moved on to a guy named Matt. He's a friend of a friend of a guy I go to school with. He's really cool. He's into drugs though, but I'll get over that. He drives, has a job, and goes to school. He's a pretty good guy...But I'm supposed to go spend time with him this weekend, but I'm not goin' to if I'm not better, cause right now I'm sick. But I gotta go now.....i have other sies to post on.....PLUR

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April 5th, 2005
12:10 pm

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Yippee
HEY HEY HEY. I have a b/f now, his name is JR. He's really cool, and not to add very hot he's really funny and has a nice car too... lol. and he has a job. He goes to college, but he dropped out of high school, becasue he moved so much. But he's really cool, I met him at target, I'm not gonna say how becasue it's a long story and it sounds weird. But yea. I talked to him for 2 1/2 hours sunday night and he came over to my house for like 3 1/2 hours Monday night. he's really sweet, and Tabi is goin' out with his best friend Desean, He's cool too. But I'm supposed to be hangin' out with JR today after my baseball game. but I don't know, if I don't get to se him I'm gonna clal him, too bad he doesn't like to talk on the phone that much, he hardly ever talks on the phone at all....except when I talked to him the other night. But I gotta go now so I'll be back on later bye bye
Sam

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Current Music: Sugar

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March 29th, 2005
08:50 am

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Hmm..
Yesterday my dad called me at brandi's and started questioning me about Josh...like 'what's his last name". and 'what company is he in?". Come to find out my stupid brother gave my dad a conversation between me and Josh...My dad got all mad and is now trying to get Josh in trouble...it's not going to work...because I'm goin' to deny it all. And it's not like my dad cared about my life before now. So why start? I mean you'd think he would know there was somthin' goin' on between us when I used to talk about him all the time...And honestly in the convo. Josh didn't do anything illegal...I did so there's not much my dad can do about it. But now he's tryin to get Josh put in jail, but it's not goin to work, because I will do ANYTHING to keep him out. I love him too much to get him put into jail. I even talked to Erin, and asked her not to say anyhing to my dad about Josh, like his screenname or last name. Thankfully she took the time to listen to what I had to say, and she said she wouldn't say anything to my dad. if she does say anything to him, it will all come back on her. Not to sound like a bitch or anything, but it will...

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Current Music: Bless the broken road by rascal flatts

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